Chapter 5: Live a Happy Life

I don''t want to indulge myself in this extravagant fantastic life. You won''t die a good death if you indulge yourself in pleasure. The dream will wake up sooner or later, and the more you indulge in it, the more painful and empty it will be when you wake up.

雕栏玉砌，醉生梦死，天上人间，纸醉金迷的生活非我所愿。因为纵情玩乐的人不得好死，不会有好结果的，这纸醉金迷的梦终究会醒，这个如泡沫似的梦你越是沉迷，醒后就越痛苦，也越空虚。

I used to have to do this to survive, but now I am not short on money, so I am increasingly tired of this kind of life. But I am a dancer who makes a living by pleasing others. What else can I do in this world?

以前是为了生存不得不如此，可是现在我并不缺钱，所以越来越厌倦了这种生活，可是我这样的卖笑女除了卖笑又有什么其他出路呢？

As long as I have food to eat and clothes to wear, I never care about food or clothing, so what''s the point of an extravagant life?

我从来都不在乎吃住，只要我有东西可以填饱肚子，有衣服可以抵抗寒冷即可，那么现在这种锦衣玉食的生活又有什么用呢？

I have my dreams. I want to be an independent woman and live with freedom and dignity. It doesn''t matter if I am a little poor.

我有我自己的理想，我想要做一个独立的女人，有自由有尊严地活着，哪怕穷一点都没有关系。

I have never been violated and preserve my honor very well, even though I have been at the entertainment parlor for so long. But it''s a humiliation I can never eliminate since I once stayed in this industry.

我至今仍是清白之身，跌入泥潭未染泥土，哪怕在歌伎坊呆了那么久，我把自己保护得很好，但是我所在的行业却是我这一辈子都洗刷不掉的耻辱。

How much I wish I were just an ordinary girl in my dream, living a carefree life with a clear background and doing proper business, but it is a dream after all. No matter how hard I try, I can not get it in reality, so I have to be strong enough, as strong as iron.

梦中的人生我希望我是那个平凡的女孩，过着衣食无忧的生活，有着清清白白的身世，做着正正经经的行业，可是那终究是个梦，现实中的我求而不得，所以自己要足够的坚强，如钢铁般坚强。

A person who experiences hardships and ups and downs with whom no one can rely upon must be rational. Even if the character is emotional, life will turn you into a rational person.

一个历经风雨，需要靠自己去跌打滚爬，没有任何人能替自己遮风挡雨的人，必定理性，即使性格是感性的，但是生活也必然把你磨成了理性的人。

There is a law of conservation